To My Younger Self

Dear One, I want you to know something very important, that no one has ever told you before. So please listen closely, because this is so important. It’s okay that you hated your mother. It’s really okay. You couldn’t have done better than you did. It was horrendous having her as a mother. You were all alone, so scared, and afraid of her. She attacked you, emotionally, energetically, even physically. You...read more

All Hell Broke Loose

image from strangedangers.com “All hell broke loose!” he said As if that’s a bad thing Well let me tell you It’s Hell time! It’s about time For everything to fall apart So if you don’t like the heat Get out of the way Out of my way Because I’ve opened the door It can’t be closed anymore I want it all to come out It’s what I’ve asked for It’s what you’ve pretended you wanted It’s...read more

I REMEMBER

  The tug in my belly. The tears beginning, the disbelief.  How could this be happening? Why? I want this. I hate this! I want a different life. I’m free, finally free! NO! STOP! Do what I want, what I say!  Why, how, could you do this? Love someone else, want to be with her, hurt our love?  What of our love? What of me? What of our children? I hate you! I want nothing to do with you! I want you –...read more