She didn’t know there was another way
Another lover she could have
The hatred she knew as her friend
Used it to keep her alive
Used it to feel alive
She didn’t know another way

She didn’t know love wanted her
She’d been rejected so long ago
Rejection knocking the wind out of her
Gasping for breath that didn’t come
She imploded wishing it would all end
She didn’t know another way

She yearned to believe that it could be different
Terrified to open to another reenactment
Guarded against the pain she nursed along
Not knowing it was her choice
Not noticing the change
Included her if she chose
To open to another way

She’s getting braver
Willing to know herself and to learn
Willing to know she’s done the best she could
Willing to risk it all
For something different to be born
Something worth living for
Something that brings waves of blessed relief
Calming, soothing, healing all the places that were hurting
She’s realizing that it is her choice
To open to another way

She’s no one I’ve been
In this lifetime.
Standing in a burnt, barren landscape
The wind ceaselessly blowing
The sky ceaselessly grey,
She is a little child
Left for being a burden.

And I don’t know
Who I’ll be
When I walk in the door.
I can’t see a path to you-
To us.
So I’m feeling my way
Backwards
Through the darkened rooms
Of our house;
A house haunted
By the echoes
Of expectation, desire and
Something Else-
And the fading after-image
Of our children’s belief in Us.
How their hearts break open
Like eggs
So fragile, so defenseless
When we separate.

I hold her hand
In mine now
And together we make a place
Where something green
Can grow.
And it’s terribly, terribly
Far from here.

What is it about me
That you avoid
Can’t look in my eyes
Look into the void

It’s inside of you
Inside of me
It’s everywhere
It’s like the sea

And when I say hi
And you turn away
It hurts me
And I don’t know why

The last time I saw you
Animals on safari
You made it plain
I’d nothing to gain
I said I’m sorry

Do I look like
A girl who hurt you
Well that’s not me
Do I look like
I’m bad news
Well, not to me
And I’m not your mother
You don’t know me
But I have something for you
It’s gonna be a surprise

Cuz when you’re hating me
You’re hating you
And the hate’s a pack of lies
Turn and face
What you don’t know
Come to a place
As black as snow
We’ll find out together
What’s been hiding between us
We’ll discover the weather
On this all-new Venus

I’m not out to get you
I’m out to learn
the mysteries of life
And to fold back the cover
Of the book
That I wrote
In the life between lives
And the truth between lies
Please come with me
And let us recognize
Each’s other
In the other’s eyes

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