was I the one?

what I want to know is was it my fault? was I the one who threw the final stone that knocked you off the cross and into the compost the one who dipped and filled my bucket again and again desperate for more of you? was I the one who convinced you I wasn’t reliable wouldn’t show up when it really mattered? was I the one who scraped you away from the scene where you stood on the precipice ready and...read more

What If I Told You

By Pam Bolton and Kathleen MacGregor What if I told you It was me? I picked up the stone And threw it At the bird’s nest And knocked it down To the ground And all the babies died. What if I told you It was me? I took the jumping mouse From the jaws, the paws Of the cat And held it Warm in my palms Until, hours later, It died. What if I told you All day yesterday I didn’t care And the day before I...read more

I REMEMBER

  The tug in my belly. The tears beginning, the disbelief.  How could this be happening? Why? I want this. I hate this! I want a different life. I’m free, finally free! NO! STOP! Do what I want, what I say!  Why, how, could you do this? Love someone else, want to be with her, hurt our love?  What of our love? What of me? What of our children? I hate you! I want nothing to do with you! I want you –...read more

I am a Tree

And old. Fierce wind whips  ‘round me, loosens and scatters the dried leaves of weary, winter fears and leaves me almost naked.   Everyone, anyone can see me!   No full-grown leaves of modesty to cover my blemishes, the turn of my limbs, my knobby wrists and elbows. My begging arms, my ancient, grounded roots apparent.   I tremble, springing with the rush of air. Shake with the dread of being judged  too...read more